Spontaneous

You didn't ask for nothing though you were holding back inside,
Didn't ask for everything though I wish you had this time.
Must have noticed something to have caused you to decide,
To hide from this belonging that could make us so defined.
You shouldn't look at me if I'm never to be seen in this light.
You won't realise yourself if you're keeping me out of sight.

I could be everything,
Someone so spontaneous is always changing,
Could different be the same for us? (well)
I could be everything,
I'm cultivating evidence of circumstances,
Almost reinventing us.

You didn't give me anything and maybe this is kind.
Showed me all of nothing that we had left behind.
But now I'm seeing you in your temporary guise,
You won't understand yourself, maybe I have to try.

I could be everything to you... more than you'll ever know...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Coming Home

Never said I'd be an easy task
I never give up if I think I'm right
I've tried turning around to see it from the other side
Then standing my ground clinging to my hopeless pride

I've worked it out I'm coming home to you
I've worked it out I'm coming home
Worked it out - I'm coming home to you

Feeling weaker I've had some time to pass
Re-live everything it was our ego clash
Now I'm turning around - thought I'd be the one to rescue us
I'm hoping the ground is going to come and swallow me up

Worked it out...

Most times your heart is bigger than mine
And I think you will find that...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Shoulder

What if this is right?
What if we are wrong?
I always pick the fight
You always pick the song.

Trying not to hate you,
You have pushed all the wrong buttons,
Starting my ignition made me come undone.
What I see before me is the mess of our solution
The final destination and you'll find me gone

This is my last chance today
My last stance over you
This is my last chance to stay
And my last glance over my shoulder

Trying not to love you
I have backed you in a corner
To look for my indifference - you will find there's none
What I've never told you is that I am in denial
Consistent resolution can't be counted on.

This is my last chance...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Bruise

Come on Sister, let's break it all down
While we ease in the morning, dew's fresh on the ground
Come on Sister, this life is yours
You got to have some acceptance, I'm giving it all

You've been working so hard on yourself
Improving what cannot be felt

You don't bruise easy (I wish I could say that)
You've been watching and waiting
Waiting here for love

Come on Sister, let's look at inside
Take out the feelings, and make them alright
Come on Sister, I know who you are
No need to travel the world here, you've already come far

I know you are trying to find
A heart that is one of a kind
Don't give up you'll find one sooner
Don't give up maybe find one later
Don't give up it'll find you in the end

You don't bruise easy....

You're hidden in the shadows
You want to be more fully known
You tell yourself you're hollow
I know what it's like to be alone.

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Guns

All those years ahead of you and you threw it all away
And the dreams of all that you could do blown to pieces in just one day
And never again will the innocent child laugh out loud
For years to come anonymity's gone - you're the monster in the crowd

What trick of mind what clumsy heart ruled your hands and feet
What kind of anger or senseless daze made you forget the pain you'd wreak
And now the world will never let you forget this day
With guns in your pocket and a plan in your head you blew it all away

Death's no game, shame you knew where the bullets go

And hearts bleed like mourners' do
And hearts grieve but not for you
Only your mother will cry for you

Where lies the fault? Who can we blame? Guess you're too young to know
Did your friends talk big? Did you stay up late, being the grown up with the TV on?
What fun was it to be outside when you should have been in school?
What thrill was it with the weapon by your side, doing what you knew?

Now you cry, why can't time run backwards?

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd


Running Slow

It's never easy and I try not to
Follow my heart these days
I've got a softly whispering voice inside me
Says 'dream your days away'

I'm craving action I run like crazy
There's nothing left to stop me now
I've got a sense of panic and I can't help it
It leaves me out and down

So catch me, I am running slow
And chase me, it keeps me high you know
And watch me
Every waking moment's glad

I keep my distance I keep my own ways
But you can see my smile draw near
I've got a tentatively troubling distraction
And it makes me disappear

So catch me I am running slow
Chase me it keeps me high you know
and watch me
I will make my every waking moment glad

And days they take
My highs and lows away
So watch me
I will make my every waking moment glad

It's never easy and I try not to
Follow my heart these days
I've got a softly whispering voice inside me
Says 'dream your days away'

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Sublime

How many Valentines have passed without kisses?
How many conversations end as near misses?
How many things are learnt that leave us understanding less?
And how many start today with yesterday's mess?

How many afternoons have I wasted on my worries?
How many rainy days have dampened down my courage?
I count the times I've laughed as part of my intention
I count the days I cannot smile as my spiritual redemption

Now it's time I hold my breath and my strength until
The days will be sublime and still
And I hope they will

If thoughts were measured by the mile then I have run a million
And I'm bold enough to smile, it's something I've been given
I hold on to the day my feet will stop their running
And I'll count the hours before the dawn and celebrate its coming
Yes I'll count the hours before the dawn and celebrate its coming

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Build Me a Home

Build me a home where the land is green
Give me windows to show me what I long to see
Build me foundations so the roof doesn't fall
I will call it home

Give me a field of fertile ground
Give me a fearless arm strong enough to plough
If I am willing to work these fields
I will call it home

Wind may blow hard to knock my house down
Waters may rise
Elements may conspire to bring my walls down
And the wind she cries

I know the river runs too deep
A soldier too long now I find it hard to weep
What I wouldn't give for a real homeland
To call my own

I am a temple in a wartorn zone
Other worldly heart beat is my Rosetta Stone
No gothic windows just an easy chair
This is my home

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Silver

See them walking side by side
Holding hands like young lovers
Fifty years they've had of learning how to love
Half a century of giving it all

And if I could share my years and future
Would it be with someone else?
And if I could let my hair turn silver
Would it be with someone else?
And as the years go by I know
I could love you for a hundred years

Well, that's what I would like when I'm older
To take a photograph of us still smiling
And look at life's challenges and the battles we have won
We'll never get weary of giving it all

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd